I watched the movie Peaceful Warrior about a week ago and I loved it.  It made me realize how much I love Eastern thought because it somehow resonates with me.  It's really got me thinking, um, I guess... Easternly.

So here's what has been getting me amidst finishing school and anticipating a conversation with my parents about what I'm gonna do with my life / you need to pay rent now:

I know that with Zen philosophy its not about the goal but the journey.  I appreciate that because it means that nothing really ought to be treated as a means to an end.  But it does leave me wondering, "what is the ultimate goal".  This is stated in vague terms very purposefully.  If I were to restate it and make it sound a bit more fatalistic I would say, "What's the point?"  I mean, so according to Eastern thought one ought to not focus on the goal or the point, but then what's the goal or point of that?

My brain hurts.  I am kinda on a mission to find a mission, if you will.  I have been living a very mundane and purposeless existence as of late and I want to find a purpose that is a)ultimately worthwhile b)not trite or something one might read in a Max Lucado book, and I don't know... all encompassing?  Ummmmmmm.... ok.  I gotta go to work now.