So here's what has been getting me amidst finishing school and anticipating a conversation with my parents about what I'm gonna do with my life / you need to pay rent now:
I know that with Zen philosophy its not about the goal but the journey. I appreciate that because it means that nothing really ought to be treated as a means to an end. But it does leave me wondering, "what is the ultimate goal". This is stated in vague terms very purposefully. If I were to restate it and make it sound a bit more fatalistic I would say, "What's the point?" I mean, so according to Eastern thought one ought to not focus on the goal or the point, but then what's the goal or point of that?
My brain hurts. I am kinda on a mission to find a mission, if you will. I have been living a very mundane and purposeless existence as of late and I want to find a purpose that is a)ultimately worthwhile b)not trite or something one might read in a Max Lucado book, and I don't know... all encompassing? Ummmmmmm.... ok. I gotta go to work now.
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I was in Florida for a week or so. It was alright. For six or seven days, this was my schedule:
Wake up around 9:30.
Have breakfast
Put on swimsuit
Sit by the pool reading a book
Continue reading book inside beacause I'm sick of sitting by the pool
Have a couple beers before supper
Have supper
Watch TV with family
Continue to watch TV after family has gone to bed
Go to bed around 2
So that was what I did for a week.
My birthday was the day I got back from Florida. I spent the majority of the day in the car. Then I got home, hung out with some friends, wrecked a pint of Jack, blacked/passed out.
The next day was Memorial Day. I went to Randy's house, and he and his brother in law were cooking some chronic fiddles. Like angel hair pasta, Arugela, slow cooked mushrooms, bruschetta, Salmon, and veggie steak, all topped with some Thai peanut sauce. Best meal I'd had in at least a couple days.
Oh. Randy is a dude who happens to be a stellar musician who is planning on gigging this summer and wants me to play bass with him. Sounds good to me, as I always say.
So I'm gonna go read up on DOS now.
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A few things I noticed this weekend. Butch's Beach Burrito is open. Pronto Pup is open. In fact I just had three pups this weekend - ketchup and mustard, thanks. When I went down there, there were some high school students there, each with a digital cam, and they were soooooo excited to be in Grand Haven.
That's the other thing I noticed this weekend. The tourists are back. Ugh.
Also, the Musical Fountain started up again this past weekend.
Annnnnnddddd a fight almost broke out at the Pavilion last night, mainly caused by some tourists. What a shocker.
Another thing, I had to stock the cooler at work on both Friday and Saturday and it took my almost twice as long as usual.
So, I guess what I'm getting at is that in Grand Haven, MI, it is officially summer.
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Second- I broke up with my girlfriend about a month ago. Details of such events don't belong on a server in some far off land that anyone can access, so suffice to say, we are still on good terms, I think.
Honorable mention- There are handful of women that come in to the gas station that I totally crush on. I met up with one of them at the bar Saturday night. We had a really great time and she's a lot of fun... So the next day I mention to her on facebook that I checked out her favorite band on youtube and thought they were pretty cool... she wrote back and said "oh, did I tell you that they were my favorite band?" She probably doesn't remember 75% of the night. Sigh.
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Weird thing happened to me today-
I went to Wendy's for lunch - I had just woken up from a nap, mind you - and I wanted Mountain Dew with my hamburger. But for some odd reason I was under the impression that they didn't have said beverage -- so I asked for a Doctor Pepper. And guess what, dear LJ friends? The young lady taking my order - and making flirtatious overtures -- something about Geico and competitor's prices -- - gave me Mountian Dew by mistake --
Or was it a mistake?
Gee whiz, I like Mountain Dew.
That makes me think of the song that Daniel Johnston sings about Mountain Dew while in a mental hospital.
CHECK - IT - OUT.
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"Newton is a punk."
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Bummer news. My grandma is not doing well. She had a stroke almost a week ago and every day for the last couple days was going to be her last, according to the doctors. I haven't really known how to feel. Yesterday I called my mom to get an update and she had just been making funeral arrangements. She told me I could come see my grandma if I wanted to and I said I didn't. Then today I was getting a new battery for my cell phone and I was down the street from the hospice that she is at. So I decided to go. I pulled in the parking lot and saw my parents cars, and left. Then I went to Barnes and Noble for an hour or so, and decided to take another stab at it. She didn't look terrible apart from the fact that she didn't have her dentures in (I didn't even know she had dentures). She just looked like she was sleeping, which made it really weird to try to talk to her, cuz who talks to someone who is sleeping?
Anyways, a lot of crying on everybody's part. Its just starting to hit me now. I'm pretty sure that that was the last time I will see her. Kinda crazy to think about. My grandpa is being a champ. I'm really amazed by him.
K. That's it.
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"Since cosmologists can postulate a beginning point for time (a point when t=0) then would it be fair to say the same for space? Why or why not? Is it possible to say that space and time existed before the universe? If the universe were to have a definite "end", would time and space cease to exist? Explain."
Today we tackled a bit of curved space. Holy crap. It's like 8th grade geometry on shrooms.
On a more personal note, I am learning a lot about how to be in a relationship. I'm learning, via trial and much error, how to not screw up something in my life that is going so well. I'm learning how to let my guard down. I think. I hope.
Last night I picked up John Frusciante's new album, and it was so-so. I was kinda bummed out about that. I found a review that pretty much sums up how I felt about the album. Check it out. After reading a couple reviews I found out that my favorite track was a cover. Sweet.
OK. G2g. Hugs and Kisses.
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Funniest word ever:
POOP.
A couple quick notes:
* I have heat in my car finally.
* I hope to submit a resume today for a job that sounds awesome.
* word of the day: troglodyte
* if you find yourself in the Grand Haven area and are hungry, go to Did's Deli.
* today's music suggestion for your listening pleasure: A Ghost is Born by Wilco.
* Stephen Hawking
* one of my best friends is having a kid
* i like taking showers
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On Sunday Alicia and I had dinner with my family at my parents house. Kinda a big deal and I think it went pretty well.
I got a 2.18 GPA for the semester which means I'm keeping my head above water going into my final semester for my associates.
Merry Christmas Everybody! I hope y'all feel the love.
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The weather just gets worse and worse. My car was frozen shut yesterday and when I finally got it open, it wouldn't shut.
Note to self: Being a grown-up means making decisions for yourself that no one else can make for you. Get used to it buddy.
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Jess: What did you do this weekend?
Me: Not much on Friday and Saturday, but last night I hung out with my quasi-girlfriend... er... this girl who I will probably start calling my girlfriend soon... er... someone I've been dating, seeing, whatever... you know how it is.
Jess: lol
So that's what I have been calling her, for what its worth. And here's the thing... I'm kinda hesitant about using the "G" word because I've only used that word for one other woman over the last 4 years and 11 months, and she started ignoring my calls and made me feel like a stalker only a week after I started calling her my girlfriend...
So. ANYWAYS.
It may be a bad idea, I don't know but I'm willing to look into the situation. She's supercool and I love her laugh. And her smile. And her cheeks. Wow. The other night she told me what her middle name is and its pretty embarassing. We're going on, like, a real date tomorrow... out to a nice dinner and the whole nine. It has major romantical possibillities.
Sorry I wasn't forthright from the getgo. And I know you all are just looking out for me.
Christmas is coming up. Yay. I'm kinda curious if a particular PHILisophical person is going to make a trip from Shanghai this year. Exams are next week or the week after that. Not-so-yay. Its cold and there is so much snow that I don't know what to do with it all.
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I got out of class at 11 this morning at there were these huge... umm... I can't really say snow flakes, but more like snow fluffs. It was really weird because I could barely keep my eyes open since they would fly into my eyes.
Additional notes:
- Whiskey is a BAD thing.
- The gent currently sitting next to me in the school library just brought to my atttention that there is a healthy ratio of attractive women on our fine campus.
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Weird thing is, they somehow fall in between the cracks betwixed some of my favorite bands, but overall, Lambchop really fails to impress me. Their lead singer sounds a lot like the Silver Jews' lead singer who I think is great, and their instrumentation is similar to Silver Mt. Zion, which I love. But if said lead singer fronted Silver Mt. Zion, it would be complete shite, not unlike what Audioslave tried to pull off. allow me to illustrate with a couple music equations:
(Rage Against The Machine - Zach DelaRocha) + Chris Cornell, Soundgarden frontman = Something kinda Nicklebackish
Silver Mt. Zion + (very pockety drummer & Nashville sound) - (any rubato & Toronto sound) + guy who sounds like Silver Jews' lead singer = (Something similar to Belle and Sebastian - Gimmicky-sounding Irish or Scottish Accent)
I was really excited to have a new band to obsess over but no dice today.
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I am really excited for the elections to be over after today because it makes me strongly dislike some people towards whom I would otherwise be relatively indifferent.
I was looking through my past posts about the election over the last almost year or so, and I found this gem of a quote from
withyour which was from way back. (kinda paraphrasing because I forgot to cut and paste) "I'm excited about Obama because as nerdy as it sounds, I like the fact that he has a background in Constitutional Law, and I'm sick of politicians shitting on the Constitution. Bah." Me to Bren. Me too.
Ahhhhh... what else... oh, at one point before the veepstakes, I was pulling for Kathleen Sebelius as Obama's running mate. I think he did good with big Joe instead.
Oh, and this is kinda a funny thought. A year from now no one will remember who Sarah Palin is. Anyone remember Geraldine Ferrarro? Me either. But for serious, what a dumb move on McCain's part. He might have had a shot if he picked someone with, um, IDK... street cred isn't the word but its close.
So yeah. I'm voting in about six hours. I didn't want this post to be completely political, but I guess it ended up being so. So.
A few non-sequitors: I had a giant sized Red Bull this morning. I woke up on time because of the time change, so that was fab. My pen leaked all over my fingers and on my tooth during my morning class.
Ok, that's it gang. That's my election day '08 post. If I had to sum up the whole election season in one word, it would be this:
"Mavericky".
Thank you. Thank you. My name is Case Monet and I'll be here all night.
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I have become much more interested in global issues lately which I think is due, in part, to my cultural geography class. What the heck is going on in D.R. Congo lately? A lot of senseless killing it seems.
McCain is going to take a beating next week. Its gonna be ugly. Last night Obama did a half hour long infomercial on prime time network television. A side note: I am currently reading The Audacity of Hope.
I looked at the ballot today. Some of my official picks: Obama, Tim Winslow, Carl Levin, and here's a shocker... Pete Hoekstra. yep. I'll vote for the incumbant Michigan Supreme Court Judge... and as far as proposals go, I'm voting yes on both state proposals, and voting no on both of the local proposals. So I guess judging from all this, I am going pretty leftish with the exception of Pete Hoekstra.
There is a strong possibilitry that I will skip my 6:30-9:30 class tonight. Also, if I had to guess at this point, I would say that I will probably move to Grand Rapids in the summer.
Sorry I don't have anything interesting to post. I haven't been as creative as of late in regards to my LJ, but I felt that I need to update nonetheless.
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Oh, and I guess I can talk about this now since it was in the paper today. One of my store's "sister stores" I guess you could call it, got robbed last night. And that was during a three hour stretch that I was alone, while working the latest shift I have worked thus far. My district manager called me, told me not to freak out, but someone just robbed the Clark station.... so heads up; someone might be robbing you soon because Clark is only a couple blocks away.
Thanks a bunch Pam.
Well, that's the latest and greatest in my life. I missed my early class this morning so I'm just now leaving for school.
xxoo
Casey
p.s. If you are looking for some good music to get turned on to, please for the love of all things fantastic, check out Yonder Mountain String Band. I'm pretty much addicted.
p.p.s. The election season is cracking me up. Even most Republicans hate the GOP ticket. Sarah Palin is a joke. A super sexy joke that I want to make out with.
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I just had lunch with my pastor yesterday. That was great. I realized that there are things in life that I can get with little to no effort, which are the things that I usually go for, and then there are the things that would probably make me more fulfilled, but these things take some type of commitment and carry a possible rejection, so I avoid those.
On a similar note, a couple weeks ago, I really pissed off one of my best friends. She told me flat out that I can't handle conflict. I thought that that was a pretty fair assessment.
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